Mehh

Once again I can’t tell what I want and what I don’t. All I know is that when my lips will inevitably meet yours, the back of my mind will be wanting him instead. 

And my heart. It’ll want him too.

I read your name today

I read your name today.

Came across it on a frequently-traveled website.

I guess it wasn’t your specific name,

But the same name belonging to someone else.

When I read those five perfectly-placed letters,

My heart soared five miles.

How those five perfectly-placed letters

Could make me think of so much,

So many memories, feelings, thoughts, emotions, secrets

Belonging to you and I.

 

It’s official: taken friends suck. Oreos don’t. Discovery of the day.

Future Talk

While watching TLC’s 19 Kids and Counting, I decided to look up some of the Duggar girls on Google Images.  Let me just say, Jessa Duggar, who is courting a lad named Ben Seewald, is gorgeous beyond belief.  I am so envious of her long curly locks!  

Anyway, this show has me so excited for my future! No, I don’t aspire to have nearly twenty children, but I do want a larger family.  Growing up with only one other sibling was sort of boring, so I definitely want to have a big fam.  Lots of girls, too. (Just picture all the little headbands and tutus!!) 

My best guy friend insists I will grow up to become a constantly-pregnant dance teacher. I can’t say I disagree. 

Maybe first I should get a boyfriend. 

Random: Questions

• 1. What is your best friends name? Megan
• 2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now? Blue
• 3. What are you listening to right now? Timber
• 4. Whats your favorite number? 33
• 5. What was the last thing you ate? mint choco chip cookie
• 6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? mint green (ooh, theres a theme here)
  
• 7. How is the weather right now? windy and sunny, but very cold
  
• 8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? my mommy
• 9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? hmm…their actions? Is that weird?
• 10. Do you have a significant other? nah.
• 11. Favorite TV show? Friends
• 12. Siblings? lil sis
• 13. Height? 5’10”
• 14. Hair color? caramel
• 15. Eye Color? Blue and sometimes a little green
• 16. Do you wear contacts? No they freak me out!!
• 17. Favorite Holiday? Christmas Eve!
• 18. Month? June and November
• 19. Have you ever cried for no reason? my life.
• 20. What was the last movie you watched? Read it and Weep – Disney Channel movie
• 21. Favorite Day of the Year? any day when I’m with my friends.
• 22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? Probably.
• 23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)? Yep!
• 24. Hugs or Kisses? Depends who is giving them.
• 25. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
• 26. Do you want your friends to respond to this? They don’t know I’m on here
• 27. Who is most likely to respond to a text from you? Megan or my dad
• 28. Who is least likely to respond to a text from you? My sister
• 29. What books are you reading? None 😦
• 30. Piercings? 3 ear piercings right in a row (no cartilage)
• 31. Favorite movies? The Sound of Music, Tangled, Friends With Benefits, Frozen, Little Mermaid, Finding Nemo, The Parent Trap, Sleepover, Cheaper by the Dozen, A Cinderella Story  (really anything that’s Disney or a chick flick)
• 32. Favorite football Team? No
• 33. What are you doing right now? Listening to Spotify and avoiding studying
• 34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? Buttery and salted
• 37. Dogs or cats? ehh, not an animal person
• 38. Favorite flower? hydrangeas 
• 39. Been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to do? Yes of course
• 40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex? Yep!
• 41. Have you ever loved someone? Yeah
• 42. Who would you like to see right now? My best friends
• 43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten? Some, but very few!
• 44. Have you ever fired a gun? No!
• 45. Do you like to travel by plane? No, but I will if I have to.
• 46. Right-handed or Left-handed? righty
• 47. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2-4
• 48. Are you missing someone? Lots of someones.
• 49. Do you have a tattoo? No, and I don’t think I ever will.
• 50. Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? All those beautiful male models everyone reblogs 🙂

Isolation

My campus is fairly large, it takes an approximate twenty to thirty minute walk to reach the other side.  While that factor is just an opportunity to get some exercise, I find that I only know a fraction of kids who go here, nearly all of them girls. 

Being a dance major is probably the easiest major in the entire universe.  As you’d probably assume, we dance majors spend significantly more time in the studio than we do sitting in a classroom.  We are with each other constantly.  There’s only about 20 of us in the freshman class program.  Don’t get me wrong, all (well most) of my fellow majors are extremely lovely girls.  The problem is, I am confined to my dance friends, my dorm friends, and my club friends.  Almost all girls.  I know it’s only my first semester, but I’d be curious to know if I will find my future husband here.  Seems pretty impossible at this rate – as the only access to guys I have are at parties (which I don’t even attend; my philosophy is that I can’t control myself around cookies so why should I expect myself to have self control around alcohol?).  And everybody knows that party boys make pretty shitty husbands in the long run.  So, hopefully I’ll find my “prince charming” at college, although I certainly have my doubts. Maybe I’ll meet him at Disney World one day, if I ever get a job there.  That’s something to be hopeful for.